He said to me, “Write about it.” – “Now,” I asked, “Yes, exactly now,” he replied.
So I sat down and started writing.
I don’t have the habit of asking people their opinion.
I realised a long time ago that everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and my opinion is often explicitly different from most. I thought this for many years, and it was a limited belief that did not help me. At some point, I realised that loneliness is not for me and that I also have a strong desire to find a tribe that speaks my language. According to the law of the universe, you get what you want when you have a clear intention and elevated emotion. My love tribe is getting bigger by the day.
One day a man showed up in my life in an unconventional way, a man who speaks my unique language. I was ecstatic.
So today in the morning, I sent him an SOS in an SMS straightforwardly, “Help! I have zero ability to make a decision.”
Now, if you ask my clients, they will all testify that one of the common words in my vocabulary is:- I know.
It doesn’t always have a logical explanation. It presents with clarity, and I understand what is good and what will benefit me the most at this moment or whoever requires assistance.
Whoever is in front of me immediately resonates with what I am saying. What I share is not always liked, but it always feels as though it is the truth.
It comes to me naturally and is not planned and not predicted, and it happens all the time.
When I was a child, not everybody liked to hear the truth,
I would always speak the truth during my childhood, which led to people seeing me as condescending. Within my social circles, the girls would exclude and bully me. As I grew up, I was called a witch or witchy.
So I learned to be quiet.
It didn’t stick for long. I was back to expressing my opinion about everyone’s messages, sharing my insights, and channel-making in every given moment. I couldn’t, and mainly I didn’t know how to be any other way.
The price was heavy.
After many years of observation, I learned to say what I know ONLY to whoever asked me. ONLY to whoever is open enough to allow the light to come through.
So indeed, at this point, you can understand that for me to get up on this hot, sweaty morning with a complete lack of clarity.
I don’t know anything.
I don’t know what I need to do. (usually, everything is on point)
I don’t know what I fancy.
I am detached from time and space.
I opened three random messages on my phone before beginning my favorite morning meditation practice, therefore messing with my head and causing me to break my number 1 rule in my morning routine.
A sense that everything is pointless without taste or smell.
I was being dramatic, like Alexis from Dynasty, and being lost like the chicken in Moana.
In that rare moment, I sent that message to the man who calls himself “? the men with a Beard.”
In his predicted generosity and his never-ending wisdom, he shared a story that stated, ‘We are only given what we can handle” and “It is in our best interest that we receive everything that comes to us with love.”… this is not a direct quote, but my ears heard what they needed to hear.
This particular morning soothed my heart because I realised what I needed. I understood that all the bad experiences and destructive emotions were for me to awaken to the knowledge that I needed to be in the receiving mode. My soul needed to be loved, supported, hear good words, get good advice, and receive the light.
I just needed someone that was connected to his own heart, and that would remind me of the path to mine. I needed to be completely honest that there are moments that I am allowed not to know and to remember that I know how to hold myself.
Within his kind words and open heart, and willingness to help, I saw myself in him. The quiet in him reminded me of my own quiet. I was connected to my wisdom like a magic wand, and I knew…
That I Know.
I always know.
I don’t always like the answer that I find, and maybe I don’t like it at this precise moment. I am not sure that whatever I decide will be true forever and ever, but now at this very moment, I know with clarity, confidence, and love that everything that happens in my life is in my best interest.
Homework for the awakened.
Find one moment in your day that seems in the beginning as a negative but is later revealed as a positive moment. (You can choose a moment from your past).
